New Year! 2011.

So tomorrow is the last day of the year. I really want to do something to make me remember this year and make it something special. Well at least the last day or so... 

In 2009, my father was diagnosed with cancer. It was a very rare kind and luckily the doctors caught it before it got very bad. My dad's two brothers also died of cancer, but he did not. Thank God. Anyways my point with this paragraph was that 2009 was a very eventful year for my family, what with my dad having to go through radiation and surgery. He is fine now though and is completely cancer free :)

2010, on the contrary has been a fairly uneventful year. My family has a lot of good memories from this year, but nothing extraordinarily special. My summer was... fair... the remainder of my eighth grade year was good and not filled with to many regrets. Except for that one boyfriend... but that's beside the point. The beginning of my high school career started out really well. I was having a lot of fun flirting with various boys, but now that the only one I really "cared" about has moved and I realized that pretty much all the other boys are very... immature to say the least, its quite boring and again, uneventful.

I don't have many resolutions for this year, but maybe I'll make a small list.

1. Make 2011 a year to remember. (This is usually one of my resolutions every year.)
2. Improve the way I dress. I discover that I'm becoming very jaded with my style and that I need to shake things up a bit. I used my Christmas and birthday money to buy myself some new skirts and a few sweaters. Hopefully I can find some new ideas for outfits with that. 
3. Stop caring what other people thing of me as much as I do now.
4. Think more positively about myself, my family, the things I'm doing, and just life in general.
5. Make at least one new really good friend that will get me through high school.
6.  Live my life to the absolute fullest (just in case 2012 is real. JUST KIDDING) 
7. Not take things personally. 
8. Keep up my good grades.
9. Actually do something this summer.
10. Get a boyfriend. JUST KIDDING. I don't need one to be happy, but it sure would be nice. 

I'm sorry. That list was a little more extensive then I meant it to be... but I think I just needed to get all that out. Well anyways, those are my resolutions. Have you got any? Feel free to comment my non existent readers! :)

Christmas!

Christmas time! Christmas time! Christmas time!

Christmas is in 3 days! I am so excited! It's my favorite time of year! Everything about Christmas just makes me so happy.

This Christmas my plans are to go up to Tahoe to visit my cousins and perhaps go skiing if I feel like it, but I dont know that I will... and then I'm going to be spending three days up there with them, and then after that i'll come home monday and get ready to go to San Francisco for 2 days with my family! I am super excited!

I get two weeks off for break, and so far its been great! I am really loving just being lazy and not doing anything. Its great :)

I hope your in the Christmas mood this year and you get everything you wished for :)

Merry Christmas everybody!

Yesterday was my birthdayyyy :)

Happy Birthday to Me!

I actually had an amazing 15th birthday. My two best friends threw me a surprise party with my super close guy and girl friends. It was so amazing! I was out of the house all day due to my community service board I'm on and so that gave them the time to get everyone to my house and hidden. When I walked into the door I was so surprised! My face was beat red. Honestly I thought I was dreaming for the first 15 minutes that I was going to fall on the floor and then wake up in my bed. It was crazy, but good crazy.

Well I'll try to post something with substance as soon as possible!

The People that Mind don't matter, and the People that Matter don't Mind

Everyone cares what other people think, to some extent. Everyone wants to be accepted, and everyone fears that they won't be. But where is that fine line between wanting to be accepted, and changing yourself to be accepted?

I was in the car the other day with my Youth Board advisor and some other girls from the board. She was telling us about how she was raised to not care what other people think. She would dance to a song if she wanted to dance to a song.

She then proceeded to tell us that she has two sons, when they are in the car with her and all of them are listening to music she tells them that whoever was able to rock out the hardest to a song and get the person in the next car to give them a strange look gets 30 extra minutes to stay up that night.

This, in turn, taught them not to care what other people thought of them. That if they wanted to rock out to a song, they should rock out to a song, and this leading on to other things of course.

I'm not the kind of girl to change myself for other people, but I do care how other people perceive me.

Well I haven't really got anything else that's deep to add to this post, just that i thought it was a really good thing for her to teach her kids at such a young age. It was a nice observation, and a good lesson for anyone to learn.

Why Him?

So today, my school had a rally for our winter activities. The main one being Bogus Ball. I'm not sure what Bogus Ball exactly is, because I'm a freshman, but that's not the point of this post.

The point is... I was sitting amongst a bunch of packed freshmen bodies in the stands of the large gym at our school. At our school rallies, the different classes have a competition and see who wins the coveted "Spirit Belt". Well, during one such game, the Slurpee one (where a member from each class had to drink as much of a Slurpee as they could through a really long loopy straw while a team member was holding it up high) I saw a sophomore who was participating as the Slurpee drinker. I don't know what it was about him, but he just radiated cool. You know that kind of person who's just cool and they don't even have to try? It's not like I had never seen this kid around school, I see him after school, and my friend was talking to me about him once about how he's super nice and always says hi to him. I'd always thought he seemed pretty cool and he definitely looked the part (He was attractive to say the least), but I dunno what it was. Just sitting there watching him drink that Slurpee while doing a handstand, and to see how spirited he was, and to see how well he got along with the people that were sitting on the floor next to him who were obviously not his friends just really struck home with me. I found it really attractive and I couldn't seem to get him out of my mind the rest of the day.

During those such hours of the day when my mind would wander, I'd find myself thinking "What makes this kid seem so cool? What makes some freshman notice how he just radiates cool-ness from across a crowded gym?" For a while, I couldn't figure it out. Then I got to thinking about the Secret, because lately its influenced me so much. Then I remember one such passage that said:

"...that the most confident guy in the room is surrounded by girls and guys the minute he walks in the door. Why is that? It's because he projects cool; he feels good within myself. He's having fun, and, most important, he's fun to be around. So he attracts a crowd-its magnetic... As for all the guys and girls surrounding him, they're all attracted by his confidence, charisma, and self-respect. Don't you see, they love him because he loves him."

I think that this is probably very true. Of course the way he looks may not even be whats attractive. Before I saw him today, I hadn't really given him a second thought other than that I knew him as that guy who always says hi to my friend. Today he looked attractive, and acted... attractively? For lack of a better word. Of course the fact that he actually knows how to dress adds to that, but I think it pretty much has everything to do with the way a person acts. Then I thought. If that kid can do it, why cant I?  So that kid (whom I regrettably don't know the name of) was certainly on my mind today. Not that I like him or anything, it was just a very interesting subject matter to figure out what really attracted me to him from across a crowded gym. I mean of all the other sophomores there, why him?

Lately, though, I've been trying to make my thoughts more positive. I want to attract more positive things in my life. Attracting bad things is not going well for me, and as a high schooler now, I'll be going to college soon and I really need some good luck, and attracting good things my way will have everything to do with my attitude, and that having to do with so much more...