A List of Songs I Currently Enjoy

• Valentine- Kina Grannis
• Can't Hold Us (feat Ray Dalton)- Macklemore and Ryan Lewis
• Stay (feat Mikky Ekko)- Rihanna 
• I Love It (feat Charli XCX)- Icona Pop
• Heart Attack- Demi Lovato
• Feel This Moment (feat. Christina Aguilera)- Pitbull 
• Carry On- Fun.
• Troublemaker (feat. Flo Rida)- Olly Murs
• Alive- Krewella

Time and Space

Maybe we haven't worked out yet because I haven't given you time 

I haven't given you the time to miss me yet 

To feel the loss that you made me feel

I've always been there, waiting

And maybe that's what the problem was

Maybe we just need space from each other

To figure out what we really want

Because I really think we could have something special again

But I can't force to realize it

You have to do that yourself

The True Value of a Moment

"Sometimes you will never know the true value of a moment until it becomes a memory."

Brave Enough to Say Goodbye

If you're brave enough to say goodbye, life will reward you with a new hello

-Paulo Coehlo

Concrete Jungle

As said famously by Jay-Z and Alicia Keys:

New York, concrete jungle where dreams are made of

Now you're in New York

There's nothin' you can't do

These streets will make you feel brand new

Big lights will inspire you

Let's hear it for New York, New York,

New York

I'm hoping this infamous song will remain true for me too. Wanting to get into the fashion industry and possibly writing for a big name magazine, I have set my sights on New York City. As the Communications capitol of America, I know it would be a fantastic place to begin the rest of my life.

I've always known I wanted to live in a big city. When I was in elementary school it was San Francisco, I used to go there all the time with my parents and I fell in love with the city atmosphere. Freshman year of high school I discovered fashion. I had known I wanted to be a writer, but I finally found what I wanted to write about. 

On a trip to L.A. with my mom and cousin, we decided to take a walk down Rodeo Drive. After that, it was a done deal for me. Walking into all the designer stores and looking at all the impeccably made clothes gave me a different outlook on life, honestly. I left the trip enlightened and inspired. That's how I knew. From that point, I decided that I wanted to go to college in L.A. Of course, touring the UCLA campus made me want to be there even more! 

I would still love to be in L.A. but I've been doing research on the industry and I just think there are so many more opportunities for me in New York. I'll get the best of the best teaching, and internships. Plus, since I will already be in New York, I can start networking and "paying my dues". I know it takes a lot of work to get to the top and I want to start as soon as possible, no delay! 

To Tell, or Not to Tell? That is the Question.

Throughout my whole life I have always expressed an interest in writing. I always had a journal and logged all the most recent events and feelings of the week, day or month. Over the summers I would write stories and put them all together in a binder and show them to my parents at the end, relating all my wonderful adventures. They loved it, and I love showing them.

Now, in high school, I find that I have even less time to be inspired and write everything down, but somehow I still try and make it work. Although my journal entries have become shorter, I believe they are filled with more raw emotion. I wouldn't call it angst, per say, but definitely an intensity that was never there before (I mean, I used to write about my hot tub bubbling over when I was little). I love writing about being a teenager and it has always given me a creative and emotional outlet. From the lowest moments of my life, to the highest, I have always documented them with pen and paper or hand and keyboard. In my eyes, I see it as making memories that I can look back on. Memories I can show my children one day, because I believe that my teenage years will not be years to be forgotten. I want to be able to remember everything.

On many occasions my mom has suggested that I begin a blog. She doesn't know I already have one. Now that I am a junior in high school and well on my way to a good college (hopefully) I have a college counselor. Last night, in one of my meetings with her, she also suggested I start a blog. She wanted me to try out different mediums of writing. My major for college is going to be a Communications major, but I'm putting emphasis on journalism. As more people are turning to the web now than ever, she thought it would be a fun experience to try writing and have my voice heard. I told her I would think on the idea and possibly start one in the summer when I had more time... and something to blog about. I didn't tell her I already had one either.

So should I tell? Should I go public with my blog to my friends and family? I have kept it a secret for the three years I've had it (as of April 7th, happy birthday blog!) I don't know why I have never told anyone... mostly for fear of being judged? Of people looking at my writing and saying, "You want to be an editor? What? Not with that technique!" Plus, I also didn't want the people at my school to know I had one either, because there is a personal relationship I have built with my blog, and I don't want that to get ripped to shreds by other inconsiderate teenagers.

To Tell, or not to Tell?