Three in 1!

Hey!! Man, I feel like its been a really long time since Ive blogged! Well, school started last monday so ive been pretty busy. I'll probably be able to blog only on the weekends because of homework, or maybe i'll at least be able to write a short post. So much has happened!!

So I started high school mondayyy, I have to be honest, it wasnt as great as I thought it was going to be. There were so many surprises!! Especially in first period. There happens to be these two guys that I have... certain history with. I really wanted to ignore one, but I was pretty excited to see the other one... well kind of. I was mostly just nervous. Well anyways, I walk into first period on the first day of school having no idea what the heck to expect. The first person i see is one of my friends from Middle School, I break into a huge relieved smile that I knew at least one person in my class. I sat next to her and we talked, but upon looking around the room I spotted BOTH guys in my first period class! BOTH OF THEM! I mean I knew that I was going to see them at one point, but I didnt think that they were both going to be in my first period surprise. It was definitely not what I was expecting.

So the week went well, it started out a bit shaky, but I have a feeling that its going to get better as time goes on. Im in a photography class, and it seems like its going to be REALLY fun! That is if I can find a camera. You'd think it wouldnt be hard seeing as how my father was a professional photographer, but its proving more difficult then it would seem. But once i find one, it'll be great!

So do you remember back at the beginning of my summer when i told you about my certain someone who was providing me with tons of inspiration. Well they are back. Well they were. This person just aggravates me beyond belief! Its like he cant make up his freakin mind! He just keeps leaving and coming back. And i know hes feeding me with lies, but i just feel to pathetic to tell him... I enjoy his company to much. He just aggravates me! I dont know what to do. i know that i should forget about him, and I really want to, but he just does not want to either stay or leave! I know he likes another girl, and im okay with that, i really just dont want him to continue leading me on the way he does. It just makes me feel like crap. And i know i'm doing it to myself which i think makes me the most angry of all!! UGH!! I hate this and sometimes I hate him. But then right when i say that i want to take it back. I dunno, it just feels irrational to hate someone for something they cant help. So I just sorted my feelings out in a poem, and here it is. Well actually I wrote two that im going to share. The first one was before he texted me, and then the second one was after. Both are untitled, so comment if youve got ideas!

1.
I need more than this
I need more than you
I know I deserve better
but i just cant let go of what might have been
I'm constantly living in the past
wishing you were my future
I know I should cherish the present
for every day is a gift
but i need fulfillment,
and the only way that can be achieved
is from you

2.
You're here
and just like that your gone again
why are you so unpredictable?
why cant you ever stay?
If you love her, thats ok
just dont keep coming back to me.
I dont know how much of this I can take.
I dont know when I'll burst.
But your disloyalty to the both of us hurts me.
I feel like I'm the other girl
the one who's just for fun
but i dont want to be the other girl
I want to be the only girl.

So these two poems basically summarize what im feeling and the kind of feelings he evokes from me.

Lets see.... i also wrote a poem about the way I was feeling before the first day of school, Ill share that with you too. here it is!

My nerves are running high
my heart is beating hard in my chest
waiting in anticipation
for that bell to ring in the crisp early morning
to hear the rush of footsteps
and the sounds coming from everywhere
waiting for that first day
excitement and happiness
but nerves and anxiety
what will be the end results?

Well there is is. As you can see and probably tell, my writing is very amateur, but its something I love to do and I feel like its my escape from the real world and all the hardships i have to deal with in it. Besides, I'm only a freshmen, I've got the rest of my life to learn more :)

I'm not really sure that i've got any more to offer for this post. I will try to blog again soon!! Wish me luck on week 2 of High School!! :D

The End! :)

Words. My words specifically.

Hey!

Ok,so today was UH-MAZING! I had my freshmen orientation, and it went really well! I LOVE my schedule and this year is gunna be hecka easy and fun! I've got computers/health/drivers ed, spanish 3, beginning photography (super excited for this), transitions to algebra 2, Honors English, and then PE last period! That make me especially happy cuz then I dont have to worry about the way I look afterward. PLUS! My ID picture actually turned out REALLY well! It makes me so excited!!! I can tell that High School is going to be AWESOME!!! The first day of school is on mondayyy! Superrrr excited!!!

I've got another poem that I want to share with you. Its about words. I think words are insanely powerful and they can do soooo much! So I think that having a blog means that your words are heard. well at least seen. Words can make someone feel on top of the world, but words can also tear people down. I wouldnt want to use my words for that, I want my words to be world renown. So I wil share this poem with you, I wrote it just the other day. It doesnt have a title... Suggestions? Please comment!

Unworn Spine
Crisp Pages
the smell of untouched paper
the first word
the first sentence
the first paragraph
all shaping themselves into a story
bending and colliding to make something magical
to make it come alive

the words effortlessly roll of your tongue
they pour out of your mouth
spiraling into the world
reaching out to those around you
allowing themselves to be heard
to be listened to

Words are powerful
they can make beautiful things
they can change the people around you
they can start a war
they can start an evolution

Words can change the world.

So I truly believe what I've written. I really do think that they can change the world if used correctly. I hope that this post gives you something to think about! And I hope you enjoyed my poem!

The End! :)

Update

Hey!

So today I went to tennis and we were there EARLY! YES! I was so glad that we didnt have to run two extra laps! But anyways... Today we walked one lap, and then ran three consecutive ones totally a mile. After that we then had to jump rope for minutes at a time and then after that we had to run in the bleachers. It sucked. I hate conditioning. I am so out of shape but at least ill be in better shape because of this! So thats good. Then of course there was the tennis part to it and that was just, well you know, tennis. There isnt really anything else to say on that. But ya and tomorrow we dont have to condition! Just tennis practice! So that makes me happyyyy!

So I hoped you enjoyed the poem i posted yesterday. I dont know the next time that I'll do it because I havent exactly been feeling inspired lately... I need something to happen... so ya. But i will try to do that again. Because I like doing that.

In other news... I have added a quotes section off to the left! These are just different quotes that I like and either inspire me or make me feel good so i thought I'd share them with you. I will be adding to them as i find more that I like. So ya.

Tonight I'm going to my friend Emily's house! Im super excited because I havent seen her at all this summer! So itll be great to see her before school starts because she is going to a different high school then me...

Speaking of high school ive got orientation this tuesday! I am excited! High School is just that much closer! Everyone says that freshman year is really easy so thats good, plus im coming from a middle school that had the International Baccalaureate program and im sure itll be the same if not a bit easier than that if everyone thinks it so easy. So ya. Plus ive already done all my shopping! I love shopping! My favorite stores (right now at least) are Forever 21, Urban Outfitters, H&M, Wet Seal (not as much though) Delia's (only for the jeans) and thats like it... Oh and I also like Macy's, just cuz its a really good store and you'll always find something there no matter what. I especially love dress shoppping there! Earlier this year we had a dance for school and i went to so many shops and i finally found the perfect pair of shoes and dress for the dance there! Man i felt so accomplished and happy! Love that store! I seriously recommend it.

So this summer has been oddly cool. Usually its in the hundreds everyday during the summer, but this summer has been 80's and 90's which is REALLY nice especially for me coming from the bay area and everything. I havent even been using my pool as much this summer! My dad keeps asking me why I havent gone swimming very much this summer. Well dad, thats the reason!

Well I hope you enjoyed this little update about my pool, favorite stores, and amateur tennis career! ;) I'll blog again soon!

The End! :)

Something New and Special

Hello!

So the first thing i want to say is that I GOT A NEW PHONE! I really needed a new one because my old phone was getting really old and faulty... which i must say annoyed me very much. I also switched from the T-Mobile network/plan/whateveryouwannacallit to the verizon wireless network/plan/whateveryouwannacallit. I like it a lot better because so far I have gotten better coverage with verizon. PLUS i get the internet on my new phone which is so cool because then i can go on the internet whenever i want to! (hello FACEBOOK!) Well anyways it is quite awesome and i am enjoying my new phone thoroughly!

So today i went to a volunteer orientation at the Sacramento Food Bank and Family Services because i am going to be a volunteer there. Its for my community service hours, but i think it looks really fun and cool. Although i will only be serving food and its not on site, i think the services they do have ON site look really good and seem VERY helpful. I think it would be a good thing to do! So ya... the orientation was just basically getting to know the place and the services they offer, we didnt do any volunteer work today though. Maybe sometime soon. So ya, thats what i did today.

So you know how in the previous post i said i was doing tennis tryouts this week for my high school, Bella Vista? Well I am, and i am SOOOOO SORE! We have to do not only tennis tryout types of things, but conditioning as well! I am so out of shape and the coach makes us run at LEAST a mile every practice so it is kind of a wake up call as to just how OUT of shape i am! Plus today we got there at 8:30 am (because thats what time the practice starts) and we were walking up and the coach calls to us while looking at her watch, "Its 8:30, You're late! Go run two laps!"
My friend and i just look at each other and so we continue walking up to where the coach is and then she calls, "Come on girls! Put your stuff down and go run two laps! Hurry!!"
so we ran the rest of the way, threw our stuff down and ran onto the track. After we had ran our two laps we come back and she gives us this big long speech about how we shouldnt be late and shes always there at practice on time so we should be too. Luckily we werent that only ones that were "late". But it was still like wha????... Well anyways... moving on...

So I think that i am going to add a quotes section and put quotes that make me feel good and inspire me cuz i just think it might be a fun thing to share. Plus you can kind of see the kind of person i am? I guess in the kind of quotes i like.

So ive never done this before... and im kind of nervous about it but whatever. So I like to write as you obviously know, or i wouldnt have this blog. And so i am going to share an original writte by of course, yours truly! dont be to judgmental... as i was talking about in an earlier post (I believe it was "Ive been inspired by uninspiring things...") well anyways what i was feeling inspired this poem that i wrote and am going to share with you. Its been a while and this poem is fairly recent so when i wrote this most of my feelings had dulled and what not so this is more general then some of the other ones i wrote were. Much more general. Well I hope you enjoy it. Eeekk im nervous... Oh and it hasnt got a title. So ya... suggestions? Leave comments! Ok, so here it goes...

Happiness is always short lived
It comes and goes in a matter of seconds
All you can do is enjoy it while it lasts
And try not to fall to hard when its gone
Happiness is a part of life
And life goes on
No matter how down you are
time can heal almost anything.

So ya, there it is. This is basically what i learned this summer. You should live in the moment. Revel in the happiness or whatever your feeling in that moment. I also learned that life goes on and you have to move on. Time can heal you. I promise. If time can heal me, it can heal you.

Well I hope you enjoyed this blog post, it was kind of something new and special. i dont know how often ill share my originals, but ill probably do it again. Once i can write a good poem to put up. So ya!

The End! :)

My boring life.

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Wow. I seriously wish i had more interesting things to talk about... but my life is kind of boring. I like never do anything during the summer. Except my camp and my family vacation, which did NOT go the way i planned. I really wanted to go to the state fair, but it closed before i got there... but ohhh welll...

So im doing this summer tennis camp at my gym, Rollingwood. It supposedly is going to help me get onto the team at Bella Vista, my high school. Well anyways, today I was going in for a volley (a hit close to the net where the ball does not bounce) and there was a ball on the ground... in conclusion i ended up falling into a jazz split and i got my knee all scraped up. It sucked. but yaaa at least i didnt twist/break/sprain something. So thats good. :) Usually im not a klutz but for some reason that ball just wanted to trip me. My coach was all "wow balls are just bouncin at your feet." I was just like great... but at least that was the only time i tripped. Today we worked on lobs and chasing the ball down... as well as playing at the net. I really dont like playing at the net. I am strictly a base line player.

Ugh. I really wish my life was a lot more interesting... I did absolutely nothing today. It kinda sucks. Oh wait, i played tennis. der. well anyways i really didnt have a point with this post. but i was bored so I wanted to write something. So ya. Im done now... hopefully ill have something more interesting to post soon. Oh! I'm going to a campfire thursday night and im really excited because i get to see all my friends from school before summer ends!! So ya. Ok im actually finished with this post now :)

Oh but i havent really gotten any other interesting facts. So I either need to find more or something else to do. So ya...

The End! :)

P.S. Im really sorry, but i havent been able to figure out how to add multiple pictures, and i havent been able to put them where i want them... :/