We said we wouldn't hurt each other, but guess what? We did. I suppose we were doomed from the start with a promise like that. We knew that neither of us would be able to keep it, but yet we made it. You'd already hurt me once and I prayed you wouldn't do it again, and I thought that if we made this promise, it would make everything else go away. And I know that I was the one to hurt you this time, but you hurt me too. You said I lied to you, that I didn't even care about you. I do care, and that's why I did what I did. I knew we wouldn't work out, that I'd end up hurting you no matter what, so I chose the less painful way. I know it doesn't seem like that right now, but I promise you, it is. I want you to find that girl who will give you everything, because it's what you deserve. And no matter how much I want to be that girl, I'm just not. Every word I said to you was true, at the time, but when I put it all in perspective, we just weren't good together. We were looking for different things, I was looking for careless puppy love, and you were looking for a deep all consuming love. We just weren't in the same place, and if we'd ever been together, it wouldn't have worked out and you would have hated me all the more. I understand if you hate me right now, but at least I know I did the right thing, for me, and for you. I didn't want to hurt anymore, and I didn't want to hurt you anymore. I just couldn't. I am so sorry for everything. Truly I am.
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