Disappointment.

He wasnt there.

I felt my heart drop.

I wondered why he didnt show.

I had a feeling this would happen. I tried to prepare myself for the worse. But i really thought he might come through this time.

I should have known better then to get my hopes up. Even after he promised me.

I now vow that I will be rid of him. I wont fall for him again. I refuse to go through the ups and downs he causes. I am done, and I will move on.

I can't BELIEVE he wasnt there. He freakin PROMISED me. I truly hate it when people break promises. They truly are not worth my while. I refuse to let him do this to me. I will not cry for him again. I will sew my heart back together. Stand tall, and just move on.

Moving on is something I truly have a problem with. Once I like someone I truly get attached. Thats why I really dont want to let myself like this guy in my photography class because he's a junior first off, and second I know that nothing will happen. Besides, I'm ok with just being his friend. Friend. Friend. Friend. We talk during class and he shows me good songs to listen to. This is one of my favorites he showed me. Its called La Mar by The Beautiful Girls.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o48nV2WQtA0


I hope this link works. My links havent been working very well... Well anyways even if you cant follow the link, just youtube it. Its really good. Anyways, I don't want to fall for him. I wont. Im willing myself not to. Dude! I figured it out! You have to be in the compose version!!!!

So even though he wasnt there tonight, and after a while i knew he wouldnt show up, I decided to have a good time anyways. I talked to some old friends that went to a different school, and I made some new friends that go to my own school. Plus today I got a sandwich thrown at me in the hallway... It was a joke from my friend so its cool. He's nice and pretty funny.

So I had three tests today. Math, and two English tests. We're reading Great Expectations, its a boring load of crap and takes forever to explain stuff good and kind of interesting I guess. Its getting better towards the end. We're almost done! I'm not totally sure what book we're reading next. But I hope its better than this one. I dunno, I liked Pip's character, and then I didnt like it, and now I do. I dunno, this book is just extraordinarily confusing.

So ever since i met my new jr friends in photo class (which im loving by the way) I have found more and more good music. I really like this one guy named Matisyahu. This is the song that I like. Its called One Day and I think the message is good.

Well I'm really happy that I finally figured out how to get the link thing working and all that, and I'll do my best to blog again soon. Thats all for now!

The End :)