Preparation

I am preparing myself, tonight, to see him.

He's going to be at the football game.

I cant get the questions out of my head. What will he say? Will things be just they were? Will he even talk to me?

Im nervous, but at the same time i'm so glad i get to see him. I've been waiting for this since the last day of school when I saw him jump the creek, get in the car, and leave me behind watching helplessly. Wishing he would come back to me. To hold me in his arms and make me laugh til I cry. But he didnt. He left me and found someone else. It tore me in half and darkened my summer, though I tried not to accept it. So this is my mental preparation to see him. He says he's excited, but who knows what he's really thinking...

I hope everything goes well tonight.

Wish me luck!