Goodbye...

He's gone.

He left today.

He walked away without a second glance.

Or even a single word.

He says he'll come visit, but I don't know if that's really true.

I love the way he's so into music. The way he loses himself in a song. His intoxicating smile makes it hard for me to breath. His gorgeous blue eyes, so deep, I feel as though I can see into the depths of his soul. It makes me want to wipe away every hardship and tragedy he's been through. Makes me want to erase all the bad memories and replace them with newer, happier ones. Makes me want to tell him to stay. Tell him everything will be fine, it'll all work out. But now he's gone for good. He won't be coming back. I feel lost and alone. 

So, I wrote that yesterday... I am just posting this now. Well, the guy I told you who was moving away moved away yesterday. It sucked. He was honestly the only thing I looked forward to in my day. What kept me going in my already apprehensive idea of high school. But no, he moved away. This always happens to me. Nothing ever works out in the love department. Oh well, nothing was ever going to happen with him... Well anyways, we didn't even get to say goodbye because he and his friend were in a fight (on the day he's moving, go figure) yesterday. So he walked out of the photography room pissed off. It made it even worse that I wouldn't be able to see him after school because I had a tennis match. I didn't get home last night until 9, and this girl who needs to go jump off an effing cliff that frustrates me occasionally. Well, I had a really bad day because he left, I didn't get to say goodbye, i played awfully in my match (even though we won, I play doubles) and I was just extremely tired. Well anyways, I come home and she starts talking to me on good old facebook bragging about talking to him and all this crap. I was so not in the mood to hear this so I e-mailed him on facebook and we talked for a little while. So i guess that was good, I just was so not into all her crap. So ya, yesterday was a bad day, and today was a bad day. Wahoo for bad days! Not.